Good morning.

Technically it is since it's a new day. I am currently unable to sleep. It could be the caffeine I had WAY too late or just the fact that I've had a really hard time sleeping lately as I've mentioned in previous blogs. Still trying to figure that out. But thankfully lil man has been very cooperative in getting decent naps the last few days. So I am able to at least sleep an hour or 2. I've been getting things done around the house on top of that. I've got to fold clothes and do some more laundry tomorrow.

I want to go back to school. I want to get a degree or something that I can fall back on, God forbid something happens to Big Grayson and I have to be the "moneymaker" of the family. I am VERY blessed to be able to stay home with lil man and I wouldn't trade it for the world. Maybe I'll talk to BG in the next few days and see what he thinks.

I was thinking about my childhood and although I had a rough patch, I had it pretty good. The friends I thought that I had then turn out to be a bust now except for a very small few. I was picked on, made fun of, used, and just had people be plain mean to me. People who I thought were friends, but realized as I got older that some of them just didn't give a rat's left butt cheek and just wanted to be my friend so them could swim. Now there were a few that I've reconnected with that I know were good people. So I'm not worried about that but I also know that what they did to me I unfortunately did to others and for that I'm truly sorry. What comes around goes around and it's bitten me in the end. But I've learned my lesson on that and now I am trying to with the best of my ability to let people know that I am very sincere when I offer help on anything. I know it's hard for them to believe me now because of how I was when I was younger but I am a different person than I was then, heck I'm a different person than I was last year. Almost 8 years of marriage and a baby will do that to you.

Don't know why that was on my mind. Just came out. I'm just tired of seeing good kids being bullied face to face and on the internet. I'm also tired of seeing good kids doing the bullying. Think about it, yeah kids are going to be kids but now-a-days they are just down right mean. I mean they were mean when I was in school but it's like going through the "Fire Swamp" (The Princess Bride) with these kids. Heck, I actually fear walking in my neighborhood and I live in a really good neighborhood. I walk with mace and my k-bar. When you get obscenities shouted at you by a 13/14 yo you don't know what to expect and I have lil man with me. These kids need more guidance than they are getting, be it at home, in school, or in church. If you're a parent and you're reading this please don't say that you don't have enough time. This is YOUR child that you brought into this world, it is YOUR responsibility not everyone elses to set and example and lead them.

I'm sorry that's something that gets my goat-so to say. I think it should be on my other blog but in all honesty it needs to be here this go around. The parents that I know that read this blog are busy busy busy BUT they have time for their children. They make it. We all need to do that. That's another reason why I'm doing this right now because he's asleep and I'm not. I'll probably go to sleep after this but think about it.

Thanks for reading. Have a good week!