Big girl pants!

I think it is time for me to put them on, I suffer from depression. I am prone to stress induced "meltdowns" because I keep things in, I have a tendency to over think things ALL the time.  These "meltdowns" consist of a lot of crying and talking with my hands. I'm Southern so we gesture when we talk. I am taking medication and although I have a therapist, I haven't made time to see her in quite some time.  She does check on me and she's busier than I am.

On my "About me" page, I mentioned that I am annoyingly loyal. I warn people about it.  Heck, I told my husband when we first started dating and he married me.

I value my family.  Every member of my family is very important to me, including some long time friends, who are more like family.

All of the above mentioned is part of why I have to put my big girl pants on, it sucks, but it has to be done for my sanity.  I am going to go through my life and basically weed out those people who aren't a positive influence in my life.  And for those who are a constant in my life that are negative I am going to stop trying to reach out to them.  I know some people that I reach out to I have whined and complained to in the past.  Part of the "Big Girl Pants" movement.  I will still try to reach out, not as much, but just to see how they are doing.  I say that because it hurts so much when you try and you truly want to know how they are doing and you want to share good things with them and there is NOTHING coming from them.

There are so many good things going on with my family that I have to change with it.  I have two beautiful children who are learning from my example.  I need to be a better person.

Wish me luck.