25 January 2012

Yesterday

*Disclaimer- This post will have a lot of " I's" in it. 


Well, I posted that I was going to a therapist.

I did. I like her. And I will be seeing her again next week.

We're going to get down to the root of it all and I hope to move forward and better manage my depression and anger.  I also want to be able to do that without having the help of anti-depressants.  I am not saying that they are bad in anyway. They have helped me so much but I truly hope that I won't have to depend on them for the rest of my life.

I am currently taking Wellbutrin and my therapist wants me to switch over to Paxil.  To be honest I am really not excited about it.  I've read the side effects and it doesn't look pleasing.  Only good thing about both is that I can still breastfeed!  Yay! 

I know this is going to be a long process, but I am very comfy with my therapist and a lot of people who have been with me on this journey are very supportive.  Best thing is that one of the 3 main people who have pushed/encouraged me to see a therapist is my husband. 

I know I whine and complain about him and blame him for a lot of things.  But with all his "faults" he has stuck with me and dealt with my ups and downs.  He and the kids deserve the me I used to be. 

I know I will always be a sensitive person, but crying at EVERYTHING is really getting tiring.  So is getting angry and feeling down alot of the time. 

I am happy and excited with this new chapter.  Thank you for sharing this with me.

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