Depression is a big pain in the....

Well, you get the picture.  

Still struggling. Now that things are starting to get better on the home front and school will be starting soon. Maybe,  just maybe I can get back to working on myself. I need to go to the doctor because honestly the meds I am on are barely cutting it and let's not talk about what happens around that time of the month. I also need to get a full physical done and get a good work over.

Since I am no longer breastfeeding I am starting to cut back my calorie intake.  Since it is getting a bit cooler I think my walks are going to have to start again. We are also getting a membership to the YMCA in town when they complete the take over of the rec center in town. 

I still have my ups and downs but family and true friends have been there in ways they don't understand. 

If you are having feelings of depression go talk to your pastor, if you don't attend church regularly still find a pastor. Can't do that? Talk to your doctor.  I have seen too many suicides in the news from celebs to non-celebs.  It's not the way. Find someone who manages their depression and survived their suicide attempt. Most of the time you will find that their outlook on life has changed and mostly for the better. 

A person who is in their "down" cycle of their depression won't hear how much you love them, even if you smack them with that love (say a pillow). Be near them and trust me they won't want to be around anyone. Tell them it's ok to cry, tell them to scream in a pillow.  Heck, if there is a heavy bag (punching bag) get them to attack that.  It's not for everyone but that way you are showing that person you do care. 

DON'T say suicide is a coward's way out. You don't think they know that? If you've never experienced true depression then you really have no clue. Sure you've been sad, depression is really totally different. That is ALL forms of depression.  Diet, exercise,  chemical changes in the body and brain. Anything can trigger it. 

In my next post I hope to have links. Sorry about not being prepared. I felt like I needed to get this off of my chest.